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Advance! The fatal word is given;

A sob goes swelling through the crowd; He lifts his trembling hands to Heaven;

His voice is mournful, deep, and loud.

Oh, God!-I sought but to be free!
If the deep bondage of this land
May centre all its ills on me,

Then let me perish where I stand!
The blood of many a kingly sire,
Has reddened on my native sod;
The light of many a martyr's fire

Has sent its life-smoke up to God!
And I, her son, was it a crime

To seize the chains that mar her breast, And scatter back the wrongs that Time Has rusted round her emerald crest?

A crime! While Ireland in her chains Against oppression toils and strives, Each ruddy drop within my veins,— Though vital with a thousand lives,Let forth by this too willing hand

If that could rend one link apart, Should redden down this thirsty sand, The old wine of a broken heart. Ireland, my country, what is she?

And what am I? A convict slave!

An hour, and that remorseless sea

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Will bear me to a felon's grave.

"Onward!" The guards file slowly past;
His pulse beats, like a muffled knell,
As dead leaves in the wintry blast,
His lifted hands unlocked and fell

But hark! A tumult in the crowd-
Murmurs of anguish and surprise;
For onward like a drifting cloud,

That from a tempest wildly flies--
The wife appears! A little child

Lies struggling in her firm embrace,
And lifts his eyes so wide and wild,
In terror to her pallid face.
She knows not that her brow is bare,

Nor feels the moist wind wander through
The golden splendor of her hair,

That shades those eyes of burning blue—
Nor heeds the boy, but firmer girds

His cries and struggles to her heart.
She utters neither groan nor words,

But, with white cheek and lips apart,
Moves slowly through the breathless throng,
That yields, with sympathy profound,
A passage as she glides along,

In search of that brave outward bound.

The convict sees her on the strand,

With one great pang of more than joy, He turns upon the soldiers band: "Stop! Yonder are my wife and boy!" Then, like a panther from its glade,

He braves the bayonet's deadly clash, And flings aside each gleaming blade With a fierce bound and lightning dash. She sees him. Like a wounded doe,

All wild with bliss and mad with pain,

Springs to his arms: "I go-I go !
What power shall part us two again?
Yes, fold us closer-closer, love-
In me thou has told Ireland yet;

I tell thee any land shall prove
Native to us. Thy eyes are wet-
This great heart swells against my own,
Its holy anguish pleads for me—
Ah! could ye leave us here alone,

To perish looking on that sea?"
Breathless she gazed into his face,

And lifted from her heart the child-
Relieved from her too fond embrace,

The boy looked up and softly smiled.
The convict turned. They should not know
How close the tears rose to his eyes-
How sweet the love-how deep the woe,
Brought to his soul by this surprise.
"Advance!" Again that dread command
Rolls, trumpet-like, along the shore,
Guarded by England's soldier band

They leave old Ireland evermore.
They stood together on that gloomy deck,
Straining each gaze to catch another sight
Of that dim shore that, like a cloudy speck,
Lay dark and sombre in the morning light.
Ah, it was very mournful. All around

The weltering sea heaved with a hollow moan,
And from the hold arose the dreary sound
Of smothered tears and many a broken groan;
For that old battered prison-ship was full,
And freighted deep with misery and tears,
From the tall spars down to the creaking hull,
She reeled and trembled as with human fears.
They stood together, silently and still,

Their eyes turned shoreward with a dreary gaze,
The winds swept wailing by them, fierce and chill,
And there lay Ireland mourning in the haze.
Then all at once his mustering grief awoke :
"Oh for a grave beneath my native sod!"
Thus on the wailing air his anguish broke.
"I ask but this—but this, Almighty God!"
As if the heavens themselves had heard,
The passion of that cry,
The moaning deep was fiercely stirred;
The waves rose white and high.

The clouds in one broad thunder fold,
Swept blackly through the air,
Like a great pall of death unrolled
By angels answering there.

Blacker and blacker glooms the front of heaven,
And in its wrath sweeps the recoiling sea,
Hither and yon the angry waves are driven,
Like routed war steeds, rushing to be free.
In mad battalions, with their white manes streaming,
They trample down the bosom of the deep;
Sharp, fiery lances through the clouds are gleaming,
And strike the waters where they foam and leap.

And then was torn that inky cloud,

With storms of lurid rain;

And heaven's artillery thundered loud

Above the heaving main.

It seemed as if the stars at last,

Retreating in their ire,

Had poured upon the raging blast
Great cataracts of fire.

Like a wild desert steed beneath the lash,
The tortured vessel plunges madly on;
The masts have fallen with a smother'd crash,

Her guards are broken, and her strength is gone.
The waves leap, rioting, across her deck,

The helpless crew are swept from where they clung, With a faint death-hold, to the plunging wreck,

Her tattered canvas to the storm is flung. Onward, still onward, anchorless and bare,

She reels and toils toward the rocky shore,
Her hold sends forth its shrieks of fell despair,
Like fiery arrows piercing through the roar.
The exiles kneel together-His embrace

Girds in the unconscious boy and pallid wife,
A mighty gladness brightens on his face,
Hope comes with death, and slavery with life.

It comes! it comes! that rushing mountain now,
And lifts the shuddering vessel on its breast,
Quick, vivid flashes curl around her prow,
And wreathe the masts with many a fiery crest.

A plunge, a quick recoil, one fearful cry!

She strikes she strikes-the rock-oh, God-the rock!

Amid the waters raging to the sky;

That clinging group go downward with the shock.

'Tis over-from behind that parted cloud

The frightened moon sheds down a timid gleam.
With the white foam around her, like a shroud,
Through which her golden locks all dimly stream,
That gentle mother clasps her lifeless child,
Folded upon the marble of her breast,
There in his pallid death the infant smiled,
As if he lay caressing and caressed.

With his cold face half veiled beneath her hair,
Cast to her side by a relenting wave,
The sire and husband had his answered prayer-
The Irish Patriot filled an Irish Grave.

MY LITTLE GODSON.

I HAD just gone to housekeeping in the dear old man- an occasion when the place he loved as well as I did, our sion where my husband was born. We had been two home, was to be displayed to such guests; and a thousyears abroad and this was really the commencement of and fancies, some of which I approved, some I could our home life. The old mansion with its antique furni-hardly avoid laughing at, were suggested by him for its ture, the fine old forest trees that overshadowed it, the adornment. "Don't you think, Eve," he asked, "if we lawn glowing with flowers, the distant river, all these made up our little paradise. There was but one thing wanting, and that we never spoke of. Vane and I were alone in the old house. There was room enough for a dozen children, but we were childless. This was the only shadow, that fell across our threshold when we passed over it.

were to collect a lot of glow-worms off the lawn, and put them here in this little plot where the flower-beds are, in front of the drawing-room windows; they would stay and look so pretty at night among the flowers?— let us get some to-night!" It was impossible for me to keep my countenance at this proposition, and he looked disappointed-even a little vexed. "How dare you laugh at me, you little monster; I'm sure it would be charming; it would look like the valley of diamonds!

We had hardly got settled when a letter came from Cousin Selina, who had been married the same year with ourselves, saying that we might expect them im--but you're always thwarting me; I hate your sensible mediately, on a visit of some weeks. Her husband was one of the most splendid fellows in the world, and she the most perfect little beauty you ever set eyes on.

people who have no imaginations;-no-don't put your arm though mine, and look up in that coaxing way! I don't like you, I won't kiss you; this is the third time to-day I have seen you smile when I suggested an improvement; you thought I didn't see you, but I did, and I won't bear it any longer!" I drew my arm quickly from his, turned my back and bent my head, so that my hat quite concealed my face from him; he came up and stole his arm softly round me and tried to raise my head, but I resisted, and kept my face averted. though it was difficult for me to conceal my laughter. "What, you're sulky, too?—there, I'll forgive you this once, Eve, do you hear?-come, we'll make friends;— by Jove, I believe the little minx thinks I'm to beg her pardon! Well, then, I will, I do, Eve; I'll never do it again-never, never any more-will that do, or must I Still, Van thought, art must help nature a little on go down on my knees?" I could hold out no longer,

How proud and how happy I felt at the idea of receiving these dear guests; of showing them, and doing them the honors, of my beloved old Woodlands. Breakfast was hardly concluded, when Vane hurried on my garden-hat, and with his old boyish impetuosity in all that interested him, or concerned those he loved, drew me out to inspect the grounds, and see what arrangements or improvements could be made to add to their beauty. In truth, it seemed difficult. Fortunately the spring was particularly fine and advanced, and already many of the earlier roses had anticipated June, and were, with a variety of other summer flowers, bursting into luxuriant bloom.

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finally dosed; the respiration became deeper, the lips parted, showing a gleam of pearly teeth, and she slept. The door opened softly, and Reginald entered; at a sign from me, he stole to the bedside and looked at her: oh, what depths of unutterable tenderness spoke through his eyes as he gazed on the fair young face of his wife.

She seemed conscious of his presence. A smile broke over her slumber, and her lips half-syllabled his name. With a cordial good-night, and anticipations of a happy morrow, we parted, and I rejoined Vane in the drawing-room.

The time appointed brought Selina and Reginald. The former was naturally fatigued from her journey, though well and in excellent spirits. What sunshine her bright face brought into the house as she entered it! "So, this is Woodlands at last!" she said as she looked In the morning, I sent to know how Selina had passed round; "it's the nicest place I ever saw in my life; the night, after the fatigues of her journey: she had how glad I am to find myself here in it, and with you, never had a better, was the satisfactory reply; and I you two dears!" and she looked from one to the other had hardly arrived in the breakfast-room, before down of us, holding out to each a little white hand, and gaz- she came, radiant as the May morning, with a little ing through eyes humid with affection. "How well blue-ribboned coquettish apology for a cap, half containyou look, my Evelyn, and how happy! Reginald, looking, without concealing, her sunny hair. Kissing me at her, and tell me if she isn't the loveliest creature you ever saw in your life! You needn't blush-you are, and it makes me so happy to see it, that I should like to tell you so every time I look at you?"

gleefully, and telling me how well she was, and how happy and how hopeful, she passed through the open French window on to the broad woodbine-garlanded verandah, followed by Fay-Fay, ever faithful, fond, and fat; a little sobered by age, but still with energy enough left to scamper and bark vehemently at nothing at all, when he found himself out in the open air. There she stood, enivrée-I can find no English word to express it

with happiness, with sunshine, with bird-music, with the breath of the wind through the trees-elm and maple, and horse-chestnut-and

When did a happier party sit down round a dinnertable than the one that day assembled at Woodlands? My husband was in one of those fits of wild frolicsome spirits that came over him occasionally; a thousand fantastic fancies, glowing descriptions, brilliant sallies, curious stories, perfect imitations, flowed forth in endless succession; and we, delighted, laughed and listened, never wearied, though it had gone on till morning; for even in the most entire freedom of Vane's gaiety, with there was always a finesse, a point, a somewhat refined, that prevented its ever becoming overpowering, as mere animal spirits hardly ever fail to do.

It required some exertion of Reginald's authority to induce Selina to retire to her room at a reasonable hour after the fatigues of her journey, so unwilling was she to break up the party. However, I joined in his exhortations, and we carried the point. I accompanied her to her apartment, but she was too excited to go to bed at once, as I wished her to do. She wandered about the room, examining the pictures, the ornaments; sat down, got up again, laughed, clapped her hands, kissed me with childlike veheinence, patted my cheeks; while I, laughing and chiding, gazed on her beaming brown eyes, her glowing cheeks, the dimples coming and going about her rosy mouth, and thought I had never seen a creature so beautiful. At last I succeeded in calming her and inducing her to go to rest.

"I will," she said, "if you'll sit by me till I'm asleep. I promised, and she then lay down, I sitting beside the bed watching, as a mother watches her child. At first she moved restlessly, stretching and throwing her arms about outside the coverlet; occasionally speak ing and smiling at me, but finding I only shook my head in reply, she at last resigned herself to sleep; the little rosy-white hands were folded, palm to palm, beneath her warm cheek; the dark eyes that had wandered about so restlessly, settled; the fringed lids drooped, raised themselves languidly, fell again, trembled, and

"The lime, the summer-house of murmurous wings,"

"The one warm gust, full-fed with perfume"

of honeysuckle, hawthorn, mignionette, hyacinth-all
Spring's wealth of sweetest odors.
What a happy
time it was-what a happy, bright, blessed time! Ah,
well, it is something to have known it-something to
have one sunny island in life's dark sea to rest the
memory upon; for I hold that even when the happiness
we once possessed has fled, the recollection of it, instead
of darkening by contrast the present, helps to take us
out of it, and gives us many hours of relief; not per-
haps at first, but later, when time has cast a bridge over
the abyss that yawned between happiness and misery,
and softened with his own quiet half tints the gorgeous
glories of the one, and the black and ghastly glooms of
the other.

Vane and Reginald, who had been paying a matutinal visit to the stables, came in, and we all sat down to breakfast—a breakfast with fresh eggs, laid by my own pet fancy hens, game, golden, Polish, Spanish, all sorts of fine ladies of hens; preserved fruits made by Elizabeth, my old nursery-maid, now promoted to the rank of house-keeper; hot home-made rolls; cream and butter from my pretty thoroughbred Alderney cows-finelimbed, large-eyed, gentle creatures, that waited of a morning for the handful of salt with which I was wont to regale them; honey from the beehives ranged along the south wall in the kitchen garden, and early strawberries from the beds planted in front of them. Selina,

who was not the least ashamed of having a good appe- | I won't speak such fancies!-he is now as proud and tite, no less than Reginald, enjoyed our "home pro- happy as I am. Oh, Evelyn, at times I think I have duce;" and we lounged, loitering and talking long and too much felicity." pleasantly over the meal.

"Dearest, this very fear ought to help to reassure Then we strolled forth into the garden; not one you: you are so intensely conscious of and grateful of my particular pet flowers escaping Selina's notice: for the happiness God sends you; you do not accept visited the dove-cotes, whose inhabitants I had so it as a right-you esteem it so entirely as a gratuity, amed, that, whenever I appeared, they flocked round, make so good a use of it, are so anxious to communiperching on my head, my arm, my shoulders; and ended cate whatever portion of it you can, to others, that the survey with a peep into the stables. Then, fearing | I know no one who need feel fewer misgivings on the to fatigue Selina, I took her into the house, and we sat together in the morning-room, chatting over a thousand pleasant topics till the hour came for us to drive out in the carriage.

There was a natural grace and graciousness about Selina's manner-a child-like confidence that I never saw any one capable of resisting; and this it was which rendered her visit so delightful.

Selina soon fell into the habit of passing a certain portion of the morning in her own sitting-room, somnetimes alone, sometimes with Reginald, Vane, and I, who had free and constant access to the sanctum-a privilege which our own habits and our knowledge of hers, prevented our ever abusing. Not unfrequently, however, she used to ask me to go there, to consult with her on some little point of daily interest, to read, or to sing with her often I read aloud while she worked, and this was what generally best pleased her.

The arrival of some new books was the signal for the commencement of a sort of series of these "morning entertainments," which were occasionally shared by Vane and Reginalu:

subject."

"You think so-I will try to hope it. Oh, indeed, indeed I am grateful for such happiness! there is not a morning or a night of my life that I do not thank God for it from my inmost soul, and pray that I may not be spoiled by it, and rendered unfit to bear adversity, if He thought fit ever to send it to me. I pray, only, that it may not be sent through those I love; that I fear I am too weak to bear!"

"Let us talk," said I, "of my second cousin, in whom I am doubly interested, having a claim on both your and Reginald's side."

Yes, and godmother too, of course; and namesake. You really are the most convenient friend in the world," she went on, with her silvery laugh; "for you are ready to fill up every office that friendship can impose. You'll have no sinecure, my poor Evie! here comes somebody!" and the cap was hurried, with every appearance of guilty haste, into the work-basket, as Vane knocked at the door.

"What have you two been conspiring about?" he asked, as his quick eye noted a certain embarrassment on both our faces; "Selina looks the most guilty: come Eve, turn State's evidence, and save your country and your kindred from her machinations; I'm sure it must be something atrocious; I never saw such a diabolical countenance in my life. I have been a great fool to allow you to associate with her; I will do so no longer; come away, instantly, before the work of corruption is further advanced." And drawing my arm through his, he led me out of the room-turning back at the door to shake his head, tragically, at Selina, whom we left

One day, I was reading from.a volume of poems which had just appeared from the pen of a new and unknown writer. Selina was, in general, the most attentive of auditors, but on this occasion, I, happening to raise my eyes from the book—and turning them on her, perceived she was sitting, her hands on her lap, buried in a profound reverie, and evidently unconscious of anything beyond the subject of her own thoughts. I finished the › passage, and then, somewhat mischievously, asked her opinion on it; she started, "I beg your pardon, dear child," she said, with her own frank smile, "but-for-bathed in blushes. give me I was thinking of something else;" she paused, then dropping her eyes, she added in a lower tone, while the eloquent blood rose to her very temples --"if you knew of what I was thinking you would not wonder at my inattention." I went and sat down on the sofa by her side, and put my arm round her waist, Tell me, Selina, of what you were thinking; may I not know?" She raised the lid of a work-basket that stood beside her, and took out-a tiny cap--worked and laced, and frilled, and with blushing, bashful triumph, held it up on the tips of her fingers:

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Darling!" I exclaimed, "how glad I am!-are you very happy?"

A happy month flew by at Woodlands, which brought us into midsummer, and then it was settled that we should accompany our guests home.

At daybreak on one morning, I was called to Selina's room: by the bed sat Reginald, haggard with emotion, his elbows on his knees, his head resting on his hands. "Evelyn, dear," said Selina, "take Reginald with you; keep him till-till you are sent for." I kissed her brow; and silently laying my hand on Reginald's shoulder, he rose and followed me passively as a child. I led him to the drawing-room, and there he flung himself on a sofa, and burying his face among the pillows, sobbed till every nerve of his manly frame shook like the weakest of woman's.

"Oh, so happy! so proud! I have wished for this so long-at least, it seemed long; I have dreamt of it, and I knew how vain it was to speak to him then, and I felt jealous of every young mother; and Reginald wished let the paroxysm pass: he became calmer, and—though it as much as I; and-it was foolish, unjust, absurd, I my own heart beat nervously, though my ear was set to know, but I could not help it-sometimes I fancied-no, | catch every sound, and I could hardly command the

tremor of my voice, I strove to appear confident and at ease, and talked to him of Selina and of his child with every appearance of assurance and security. A hurried step on the stairs! we both sprang forward to the door to hear the blessed announcement that all was well, and that Selina was the mother of a noble boy! "Now I may go to her!" Reginald exclaimed, turning to me: "Not yet;" he returned to the sofa, and sat down. Evelyn," he said, his face an April sky of tears and sunshine, "help me to thank God for all this." We knelt down, side by side; a prayer, repeated in firm accent, seemed to rise from the very inmost recesses of my soul; while Reginald, with bowed head and crossed hands, now and then uttered a deep "Amen!" As we rose from our knees, Vane, who had more faith in my management of Reginald than in his own, entered.

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"Now," I said, "if Reginald will keep quiet, I will go and see if he may greet his son and heir." He promised, and I proceeded to Selina's chamber; ere I reached it, the shrill cry that struck upon my ear made my heart leap with a strange emotion: who has not felt this, at that first actual evidence of the existence of a new human creature, the sudden presence of another mortal, as yet strange and unknown even to the expectant and adoring hearts of the authors of its being? what must she have felt, when that cry first told her she was the mother of a living child! Oh, I almost envied her!

Selina was much excited when I entered; tears and smiles passed in succession over her face; she would talk rapidly, calling her child by names of the most impassioned tenderness; and it was only on my assuring her that I would not let her husband come till she was calm and silent, that she strove to regain tranquillity. Then I sought Reginald, and, leaving him by her bedside, turned to contemplate more at leisure the little heir, who had ceased to exert his lungs, and lay, displaying only a little red face and hands in the midst of much muslin and flannel, on the nurse's knee. Of course she assured me it was one of the finest specimens of new-born humanity that had ever come under her wide-spread experience; and I really believe it might have been; though mine not being at that period at all extensive, I was content to take her word for it, and to gaze at the little, soft, half-formed, soulless face, with working mouth and half-closed eyes, wondering the while what might be its sensations, and if, as yet, a dawn of anything beyond the consciousness of mere physical existence had gleamed on its spirit.

While thus speculating, the father came to look at his son; "There's a lovely boy, sir !" exclaimed the nurse, as he bent over it.

Reginald seemed reassured by the assertion; it did not appear quite to have struck him in that light before.

"You think it's a fine child, nurse?" he asked, half doubtfully, half hopefully; "isn't it very red?" he suggested, timidly.

"Red, sir! of course it is; all healthy children are red at first: I should think it was red! a love, a beauty, it was!"

"May I kiss it?" "Kiss it! Lord love you, yes, sir-no danger!" Reginald performed the operation with evidently as much alarm as pleasure, and then stood contemplating the infant with a mixture of pride and wonder that was at once touching and ludicrous beyond expression. Then, evidently without having at all made clear his own impressions on the subject of his son's aspect, he returned to the bedside, and sat silently holding his wife's hand in his own.

Selina had resolved from the first to nurse the child herself, a duty to which, as she was remarkably healthy, neither her physician nor Reginald objected. The child was brought to her, and I noted the difference of the earliest impressions of father and mother. She never for a moment doubted of the perfection of the little being; I believe she thought its redness constituted one of its chief charms; she hugged it, without the least alarm that it would crumble to pieces in her grasp; she kissed, and smiled, and wept over it, studying its features, its hair, its little helpless, half-open hands; seeking to find it like Reginald; and then looking forth from the present into a vista leading through short-coats, the first utterance of "Papa," the first tottering steps, the rocking-horse, the pony, school-days, at which she winced a little, but consoled herself with an assurance of prizes and distinctions; college, with increasing honors, and then a manhood like its father's. Whether, during that first day of maternity, she arrived at being a grandmother, I cannot positively state, but I think it highly probable that that prospect was at least glanced at in her speculations, as after her first excitement over, she lay, calm and happy, a half-smile on her sweet lips, and her large brown eyes, now wandering about the room, now fixed in deep abstraction.

Selina's recovery was rapid, and day by day her adoration for her child seemed to increase. As its beauty began to develop, Reginald's paternal pride and affec tion grew proportionately, and he ceased to regard his son as a strange and dangerous piece of mechanism, which he did not comprehend, and feared to injure by a touch.

In due time, there was a grand christening; and then we left our little godson, and returned home.

The winter passed by, quietly and uneventfully, and the spring brought the period for our second visit to the Audleys.

As we drove up the avenue, which led to their pleasant country-house, the sound of our wheels brought out its beloved inhabitants to greet us; there on the steps stood Selina, looking, as I fancied, a shade less girlish, a little more matronly, than last year, but ever bright and beautiful as the morning; and Reginald with his boy in his arms. There indeed was a metamorphosis; instead of the helpless bundle in long clothes, was a noble, sturdy, infant Hercules, with such limbs, such a complexion, such glorious eyes-his mother's-such clustering golden curls. As I advanced to kiss him, he looked at me intently for a moment, clinging tight to his father; then relenting, his face relaxed, and he offered his lips to my embrace, but decidedly declined

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