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fit; he would not leave such for the choicest Circuit. When he ultimately departed, he was followed by the tears and regrets of his flock; and a few months after his removal to Northampton, a lady, who under his ministry had been convinced of sin, travelled from Berkshire to Northampton, to inform Mr. Fowler, that God for Christ's sake had spoken peace to her soul ; and they rejoiced together with exceeding joy.

In Northampton he found a large chapel, which had not long been erected. But soon the place was found too strait. Galleries were considered necessary. My father, at the request of the Trustees, went to London, to consult an architect on the subject; he took a most lively interest in the concern, and had the happiness of seeing in the course of a few months commodious galleries erected, and the .spirit of hearing so poured out upon the people, that the extra accommodation was scarcely sufficient for the numbers that flocked to the house of prayer. The work of God prospered in the Circuit. He was at this period appointed Chairman of the District, and was reverenced and beloved in his office. He was frequently invited to other Circuits, to preach occasional sermons; but declined such invitations when he could, as the prosperity of his own flock lay the nearest to his heart, and he watched over them with continual solicitude. In this Circuit he had much family and personal affliction : his graces were tried and refined. At the close of the third year, he was appointed to Maidstone; and there it pleased the Lord to prove his patience in a peculiar way. He was attacked by tooth-ache, of an excruciating kind, which continued, with only occasional intermissions and abatement, for twelve months. His spirits were much depressed by this “thorn in the flesh ;” but his faith was invigorated by that which debilitated the body. Sometimes the paroxysms were so acute as to prevent his preparing for the pulpit by study, as he was wont ; he could only pray for assistance, and then go to the chapel scarcely knowing what was to be the subject of his discourse ; but so gracious was God to him, and so did He honour his faith, that frequently as soon as he had set foot in the pulpit the pain departed, and his soul was wonderfully blessed, while all present felt it good to wait upon God. His medical adviser recommended his removing to another part of England ; but I have heard him say, he never found anything so difficult to break to a Quarterly Meeting, as this his necessity of leaving them at the end of the first year. They had fully counted on his stay; and when, with faltering accents, he told them he must say “Adieu,” some were affected to tears. But he was obliged, despite all their affectionate entreaties, to be firm, as he felt his constitution would not endure another year of such suffering. From thence he removed to Newbury, and in that place endured the severest trial of his pilgrimage, in the death of my pious and much-loved mother. The stroke was sudden ; but she had lived a life of devotedness to God, had been a meek and humble follower of the Lamb, and employed her talents for the benefit of the church.

My dear father, though he sorrowed not as those who have no hope, felt most poignantly this loss; and had he not continually resorted to the Strong for strength, he would have been utterly unfitted for public duty. He strove to say from his heart, “ Thy will be done,” and, “ The cup which my Father hath given me, shall I not drink it?” It is believed his piety was much deepened by this mysterious stroke. He felt that he had now to lean on the arm of God alone, and “sufficient was his arm alone, and his defence was sure.” He wrote a Me. moir for the Magazine, of ber whom he so much lamented, and which appeared in the September Number for 1823. At the close of this his second year at Newbury, he took a mournful adieu of the friends, and the place where he had consigned his greatest earthly treasure to the dust, and, having sent my brother to Kingswood, went again to the Nornian Isles, where, as it has been seen from his journal, he had spent many happy days when a younger man. After a boisterous Foyage of nearly three days, and a narrow escape from shipwreck, we were greeted on the shore by his quondam Jamaica Superintendent, the Rev. William Fish. It seemed to revive his drooping spirits, and he was enabled to put a cheerful courage on. His old friends, both English and French, flocked around him; and delightful indeed was it to hear their simple statements of the way in which the Lord had led them on in the paths of righteousness, during the interval in which they had been lost to each other's bodily view. Well do I remember his friendly salutation to those to whom in former years he dealt the bread of life in the French language : Eh bien, mon cher frère, (or) ma chère soeur, comment se porte l'áme? Aimez-vous le Seigneur ? and then my dear father's countenance would brighten with thankfulness when he heard them reply in the affirmative, while he exclaimed, C'est une grande miséricorde, béni soit Jésu!

The roughness of the perilous voyage laid the foundation for severe liver complaints, with which he was afflicted for months; and during that time he was much indebted to his kind friend and brother, Mr. Fish, who officiated for him frequently, and supplied with great affection any lack of service in his power. Other brethren also might be named who showed great affection, and did what they could to assist him, and whom he, in return, loved with a brother's heart; but many, if not all, of that loving band are passed away, have exchanged the vicissitudes of time for the repose of eternity; they have entered into that rest for which they laboured and panted, and, doubtless, ere this, have greeted each other with ecstacy, “on earth unkindled, uncon. ceived." This Circuit he also left at the end of the year, on account of his sickness, and was appointed to Southampton, where, with much acceptance, he remained two years, and was in labours abundant, his health being then restored : from thence he removed to Newark, where he was most affectionately received, and spent three prosperous, happy years, God working with him, and crowning his exertions in his cause with success. The Quarterly Meetings were delightful seasons, and it was truly cheering to see with what reverence and love all looked up to their Pastor, and with what affectiou he regarded the sheep copimitted to his care.

In the third year of his sojourn in Newark, he entered again into the marriage state, after having made it a subject of earnest prayer to God to be guided aright.

From Newark he removed to Frome, and found it to be in many respects a melancholy contrast. The people were generally suffering in mind and estate from a depression in trade, Yorkshire having at that time monopolized the greater part of the cloth manufacture ; the consequence of which was, that persons who had been in affluent circumstances were reduced to poverty. Some who had lived in elegance were obliged to work with their own hands for their daily bread, whilst many, alas! from age and infirmity, were driven to seck shelter in a workhouse. All these circumstances had a painful influence on the morals of the town and neighbourhood, and in many ways religion was injured in that locality: members of society were reluctant to attend their class, when unable to contribute as formerly ; hearers of the word felt a delicacy in going to seats for which they could no longer pay; and it was only when there was a deep work of grace that these untoward circumstances could be overcome; and in some instances it was done, to the glory of God, while the pride of human nature was subdued, so that men who had been wealthy meekly took their seats on the forms provided for the poor, and there felt the blessedness of the scripture which saith, “ The poor have the Gospel preached unto them.” But it was not the people only who felt these trying times; their Ministers shared a portion of the cup, by the diminution of supplies : all these things tested the sincerity of my father's faith, and he could truly say,

“ It is not for me to be seeking my bliss

And building my hopes in a region like this :
I look for a city which hands have not piled,
I pant for a country by sin undefiled.

“ The thorn and the thistle around me may grow;

I would not lie down upon roses below:
I ask not a portion, I seek not a rest,
Till I find it for ever on Jesus's breast."

After weathering the secular storms of two years in this place, the Conference appointed him to Melton-Mowbray, where he found the people generally alive to God; and it may perhaps be said that at that time the societies in that Circuit had rest, and “the word of God grew and multiplied.”

From Melton he went to Belper. When there, great commotion was felt in manufacturing towns in consequence of the Trades' Unions then established throughout the kingdom. They were the means of disaffecting the working classes, and threatened ruin to many of the manufacturers. My dear father exerted himself, both in the pulpit and out of it, to quell the insubordinate and riotous spirit which these associations fostered; but he was paid for his faithfulness by persecution of open and painful nature. At one time his life was considered in peril, and he could scarcely walk the streets without some of these mistaken and violent people calling after him the opprobious epithet of “Black Sheep," a term which was well understood amongst the idle of the lower class, as a kind of watch-word for an attack : but God stilled the violence of the people, so that none were permitted to harm him.

During all the excitement of these circumstances, he steadily attended to his ministerial duties, both in town and country, though many of the friends would fain have dissuaded him from going to some of the lonely country appointments, where they feared he might be waylaid ; but he preferred risking his life in the path of duty, rather than to neglect any portion of his charge : his reply generally was, “I am immortal till my work is done,” or, “ There will be time enough to rest in the grave : I must work while it is called to-day.” After a season the storm ceased, and there was a calm ; and many who had been his opponents felt that he was right, and respected bim for his faithfulness.

His next appointment was to Great-Yarmouth, in which place he was made very useful, and had the pleasure, in the third year, to be most actively employed in preparations for a new and commodious chapel. Often was he engaged till midnight in attending Committees, or consulting the friends. His heart and soul were in the blessed work, and greatly did he rejoice, when he found that money sufficient could be raised, to warrant a commencement of the undertaking.

Yet, notwithstanding the joy he felt, when the desire of his heart was completed, beholding the sacred edifice in which he had so often preached the word of salvation, taken to pieces by the workmen, he was affected even to tears : on my inquiring why he so felt, when it was such a cause of gratulation that a nobler building had sprung up, he replied, “ When the foundation of the second temple was laid, the old men lifted up their voices and wept,' when they remembered the first temple; and," said he, “when I look in and see them demolishing the building, where I have so often felt God to warm my heart with his love, I cannot refrain from tears."

From Great-Yarmouth he went to Lynn, and there met with much affection. In the winter his health failed, and he suffered greatly : still, as long as it was possible, he continued his pastoral duties. He felt it required more grace to acquiesce in the will of God that he should be laid by, than that he should continue to spend and be spent for him: and surely none know the poignant feelings of a Minister in such a case, without having experienced them. For forty years he bad been laboriously and actively employed in the vineyard ; but at last the body began to sink beneath such ceaseless exertions, and could no longer do the spirit's bidding. It pleased the blessed God who had at first called his servant into his service, now to tell him to retire, to seek the shade. IIe felt it was not for a servant to choose or dictate to his Lord, but nieekly take the post assigned. He obeyed in the spirit of meekness, and retired to his old Circuit, Great-Yarmouth, as a Supernumerary.

About this period he thus writes to my brother :-“ Forty years ago

a cause of no tears : on my inquiring pieces by the workmootter

this month, I began my ministerial career. What hath God wrought! My race has been much longer than the general race of Preachers ; but I am sorry to say that at last I am obliged to halt ; and I expect at the next Conference to be obliged to leave the field. What a mercy that I leave it not as a deserter or a coward, but retire from it as a wounded officer in the honourable service of the Captain of our salvation! I feel a desire, if it be the will of our heavenly Father, to be his public servant for one year more, that I may preach as I have never preached before ; but this I must leave with Him, with whom 'one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day.' I trust I am ready to do, or willing to suffer, as shall be most for the glory of Him whose I am, and whom I serve."

In December, 1841, he again writes :-“I feel more and more that I am on the down-hill of life ; and the pressure of old age directs my attention more solemnly to the momentous concerns of futurity. I feel it a great mercy, now that I am old and grey-headed, to be able to look on a long life of devotedness to God. At the early age of fourteen, I felt the love of God to warm my heart, and was led to pity those who had no part or lot in the best things. Since that period, how numerous and terrific have my dangers been ! yet the Lord hath always been my shield and buckler. If the storm has come down upon the lake of life, it has always bowed to the mandate of the Galilean Pilot, and the cheering voice of Peace, be still !' has endeared more and more to my head and heart that Friend which sticketh closer than a brother. I would not part with my golden prospects of glory, immortality, and God, for ten thousand worlds. I think at times, what a transport of joy must that be, to sit down at the marriage-supper of the Lamb, and sing the high-sounding praises of the triune God for ever and ever!”

In a letter, dated April, 1844, he says :-"I have not been able to preach lately; and think that high, that honourable work is nearly completed. Instead of occupying the pulpit, I can only look at it; and, instead of singing in it, I can only sigh on the outside! O what a reverse! a reverse of a humiliating description ; but one that I am capable of meeting with Christian submission to the will of my heavenly Father! Grace in the heart, and glory in reversion, enables me to say, “Even so, Father; for so it seemeth good in thy sight." O how thankful ought I to be, to think that for forty-six years I have been allowed to work in the Lord's vineyard! It was in February, 1798, that I entered upon the Missionary work, and yoked myself to that noble car; and what a mercy to think, that during so many years' service, I have never been drummed out of the regiment ! Thanks be to God for his unspeakable gift !”

“May 27th, 1845.—Last night was our Missionary Meeting; but I was shut up in my domestic cage ; and there all I could do was to sing and make melody in my heart to Him whose altar is all space.' What a mercy that I know I am on my journey home, where I shall sing with the seraph, more sweet, more loud, and Jesus be my

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