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we shall be all the morning alone. I have just been giving myself up, spirit, soul, and body, to Jesus, and I have been repeating my psalms and chapters; but I am so glad to see you that you may speak to me, and that I may ask what I want to know."

Her mother's heart rejoiced; for, from her appearance, she then, and both she and the doctor, for a great part of the day, were encouraged in the opinion that the crisis was past, and that her recovery, though it should be tedious, might now, under Providence, be hopefully looked for.

When they were set down together, the conversation turned on the union of Christ with his people-its indissoluble nature under all circumstances. Her soul seemed to repose on the doctrine with a peace not to be understood but by those who experienced it. The following passage from the 8th chapter of the Epistle to the Ro mans, as bearing on the subject, was then read: “Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor prin

cipalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." The precious truth seemed as “hidden manna" to her, and she expressed herself comforted and refreshed. How nourishing to the hungry soul is God's Word, when he has opened the heart to receive it in faith-the soul that is in Christ, "sealed with that Holy Spirit of promise, which is the earnest of its inheritance!"

A pause took place in the conversation, and after a little she appeared dull and cast down. When her mother inquired the reason, she said, "I find all my desires to be conformed to the will of. God in vain-I cannot do or be what I wish, or keep from doing what I hate."

She was still within the reach of "sin's suggestions and Satan's temptations." Her spirit, which aimed at perfect holiness, and desired to soar above the polluted atmosphere of a world lying in the wicked one, felt and mourned the load which seemed to render its every effort fruitless. Where, in such circumstances, could it look for direction, but to that "light shining in a dark place," which reveals the experience of all

who are taught of God, and tells of such trials in their case, even in the near approach to heaven? Her mother read to her from the close of the 7th chapter of the Romans: "For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not. For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do. Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me. For I delight in the law of God after the inward man: but I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin."

"That," she cried, "is exactly as I feel, mama;" repeating, once and again, with evident comfort the apostle's declaration, "I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord."

She was now required to lie still for a time, as some medicine had been administered. When

the conversation was resumed, it turned on the temptations to which we are exposed from Satan

and our own evil hearts.

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"Well, mama, to tell

you the truth, Satan tried me very sorely one day of late."

Her mother immediately asked in what she had been tempted by him.

"He tried to make me think that it is too soon for me to give myself up to Christ—that 1 am too young-that there is plenty of time for that hereafter; and he succeeded, for one day, to keep me from prayer; but he has not come near me since."

The doctor had enjoined quiet and silence; her mother reminded her of this. "O, very well, mama," she said; "but if you knew the good it does to both my body and soul, when we get talking alone on these subjects!" Her favourite psalms were read to her, and she lay in silence for about two hours.

When breakfast was sent up, on being raised in the bed that she might take it, a sudden spasm almost deprived her of breath. It produced a startling scream; but she instantly recovered, expressing a hope that her mother was not alarmed, adding, that she had herself been afraid for a

moment, but now felt quite well again. After a little, she expressed a desire to be removed to the couch on which she had lain the preceding day; and when she had partaken of something to strengthen her for the exertion, her request was complied with.

When placed comfortably as she had wished, she exclaimed,-"O what mercies are granted such an unworthy creature as I am, were there nothing more than the kind parents God has bestowed on me!" Thus she lay for considerably above an hour, until her mother, conceiving that she would be more at ease in the bed, proposed replacing her there. She immediately assented, saying, "I prefer this; but if you wish me to remove, I am quite willing." She was accordingly placed in bed.

No sooner was this accomplished, than the spasms and breathlessness recurred to a degree much greater than they had previously been experienced. The alarm for her state, which had subsided in her mother's mind, was, on witnessing this, painfully renewed. The medical attendant, too, who had resolved on leaving her in course of the forenoon, thought it advisable to alter this resolution. The state of the weather, in the early part of the day, had prevented his

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