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ST. MARTIN'S SUMMER.

journal.

"WE."

VEVAY, Hotel des Trois Couronnes, 11th January, 185-.

E never do anything for the last time consciously without sadness, some one has said; and I am feeling a sort of tender mournfulness as I write the above heading in my new

"Vevay, Hotel des Trois Couronnes," is put here for the last time, and the first, too, in this fresh book; the last time, at all events, for many years, for to-morrow we commence our journey into Italy, and to accomplish our pleasant plan of delightful travel and leisurely study there will keep us from revisiting Suisse for a long while.

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I talk of "We" as naturally as if this " we was the same which was meant on the first pages of the large, closely-written volume I packed to-day in the box which is to be sent to America, that book which contains the sorrowful record of five gloomy years. A lustrum, as those old Romans used to say, and indeed, it has been a period of purifying and light-giving; so much light and clearness of mental vision, that I sit sometimes and

grow weary over the thought that, with such light at the beginning, I might have made straight much that was hopelessly crooked and wilful. What use, however, in such a thought?

"We can but fill the hour with its best deed,
The knowledge which the tardy morrow brings
Impeaches not the wisdom of the act,

It came too late to guide."

And now back again to my starting-point of "We." First, however, let me notice that Rhone valley, and the Lake, the clear starlit sky, and the beautiful terraced garden beneath my window, which looks like some chateau pleasure grounds of the gay French days of Watteau. Yes, they are all very beautiful, and the memory of them will be delightful; but, according to the opinion of the German lad across the street, at the Pharmacie Mayor, the memory will also be sad.

"Ah, Madame," he said to me this afternoon, as I was buying some cologne of him, "you will long heartachingly for these Alps. You may think you can leave them as you do other beautiful countries, but you cannot, Madame. Once live among mountains and they become like kindred, and when you go away the Heimweh, or home-sickness, is sure to cling to you as well as to the native-born Suisse."

There is such a

How strange these Germans are! deal of dreamy sentimentality about them, which consorts drolly, like some curious marriages, with their sharp, keen eye to the main chance. This young German looked pensive and sighed most touchingly; but he did not forget to charge me outrageously for the cologne, notwithstanding he could talk so tenderly about the Alpine Heimweh. But the Irishman is forgiven for

his wit, therefore let the German's droll romance stand him also in good stead.

Down in the garden I see Janet walking up and down the short slab of stone which forms the landing-place of the broad flight of terrace steps leading to the lake. She is enjoying the loveliness of the night, which is cold, still, and beautiful, and doubtless thinking of the approaching departure separation to her a little solemnly. She — leans on the stone parapet, gazing clear off into the dim distance. Like Thekla, over that glorious young Max's grave, she may be murmuring,

"There where he lies buried

Is now the whole earth to me!"

The eye cannot in this dark night trace around the beautiful indentations of the lake shore, nor could it from this window or that terrace see the enchanting spot where lies Janet's "whole earth."

Under the shadow of that beautiful old Montreux church is a grave containing two human beings. One, whose life had only a breath, a look, a sigh, and then back again to its native heaven. Another, who lived honorable years, loved, served his kindred nobly, received priceless love in return, lay down to die in the midst of life's best gifts, and is now mourned with a silent unending grief, "too deep for tears."

It is a lovely resting-place, that old graveyard. The picturesque church hangs suspended, as it were, from the mountain's side; its fine spire, with ogive piercings, draped with clambering ivy, points upward, and at sunset this stone finger of Hope throws down its protecting, assuring shadow directly over the earth-bed in which lie Janet's best memories.

I stood by it alone yesterday at sundown, and wished I could have Janet beside me to show her how peaceful and happy the place looked; and this afternoon, when she walked off there to make, as I knew, her last pilgrimage to that dear spot, I prayed that the same soft shadow might rest just as lovingly as it seemed to my eyes, and bring down into her heart the same quiet, soothing thoughts it had to mine.

Music fills the air. Venitia is condescending to use the hotel piano. Her own Erard full-grand has been packed up for a day or so, in order to be sent round by Marseilles and down the Mediterranean to our new home in Parthenope, as she, with pretty poetic pedantry, calls our intended abiding-place Naples, Neapolis,- for to us it will be new.

She is capricious to-night, and is playing only broken bits and passages, nothing continuous. Like us she is feeling the breaking-up and departure, but not as we, nor for the same cause; for she has no past, has had no awakening, and is at that happy age when she feels only the inconveniences of the present, and is free from those sorrowful memories which might make her dread a future, or any change, no matter how hopeful and bright it might look.

And yet her trust in this unknown future is a blind, unconscious feeling, not that trust which arises from wisdom; for though Venitia has much knowledge, she has but little wisdom.

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but true wisdom is faith,

a faith more than a believing, for belief is a work of reason, faith a result of love, a trust in that which we do not see. But, after

all, it is only through many losses that this diviner wisdom comes; and it is the possession of this that makes Janet so much calmer than either of us; she has a true tranquillizing faith and trust in the unknown Future of this life.

"It soon becomes the Present," she says; "and if it be a present of sorrow and suffering, they, being human, after a season, pass away even from the memory; but if it shall be a sweet present of joy and happiness, they, being divine, remain forever. There is a lethean stream, my friend, flowing through our being, which, in time, quiets all murmurs, stills all unrest, and even throws a soft mist over the memory of past joys to prevent the disturbing effect of regret."

But now back again to "we." Who and what are "we?" For I make it a rule always, in commencing a new journal, to describe my social surroundings, if at all differing from those which were with me at the beginning of the previous one. As my memory sweeps back, endeavoring to contrast this present with that past, it flaps a wearied wing, so wide and broad is the gulf of difference stretching out appallingly into a mare tenebrosum of hopeless separation from that past!"

Enough of my individual self. My journal does not need that text dwelt on at the beginning. It is a sermon which all these pages are to hold and develop. Let me talk of those social domestic surroundings which, to a woman most especially, make her real "we" — her daily, hourly associates of Janet and Venitia; for they are

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These names did not touch the pages of the other journal during all its first three gloomy years. These two human beings, who are now so much to me, — one,

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