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You shall iinmediately join your regiment there. You know it is your duty. In the mean time, something may happen. Heaven will not desert two faithful hearts that love like your's and mine. There are joys; there is happiness in store for us yet. I feel there is. And (as I said just now) while you are in Ireland, I'll write to you every post, twice by one post, and I'll think of you, and I'll dream of you, and I'll kiss your picture, and I'll wipe my eyes, and I'll kiss it again, and then I'll weep again. And
Can I give a stronger instance of my regard for you, or a stronger proof that you ought to take my advice, than my thus begging my only joy to leave me? I will not swear I shall survive it ; but, I beseech you, go
! Fool that I am--I urdo with one hand, all I do with the other. My tears, which drop between every word I write, prevent the effect of my reasoning ; which, I am sure, is juft.
Be a man, I say-you are an angel. Join your regiment; and, as sure as I love you (nothing can be more sure) I will recall you, from what will be banishment as much to me as to you, the first moment I can marry you with honour to myself, and happiness
But, I must not write thus.
Ill suits the voice of love, when glory calls,
L E T T E R
17 March, 1776. And I will respect the vow of Jephtha, and I will follow to the field. At least, I will think of it all to-night, for I am sure I fhall not feer, and will let you know the success of my truggle, for a struggle it will be tomorrow. I will wait for you at the same
place in the park, where I shall see you open the A. door. Should it rain—I'll write. It was my intention to have endeavoured to see you now, but I changed my mind, and wrote this, here ; and I am glad I did. We are not in a condition to see each other. Cruel debts! Rather, cruel vow! for, would you but have let me, I would have contrived some scheme about your debts. I could form a plan. My Gofport matters my commission
Alas, you frown, and I must stop. Why would not fortune smile upon my two lottery tickets? Heaven knows I bought them on your account.: Upon the back of one of them I wrote, in case of my sudden death,“ this is the property of Miss” On the back of the other, that it belonged to your daughter.
For what am I still reserved ?
L E T
L Ε Τ Τ Ε R
A. 19 March, 1776. Why, why do you write to me so often? Why do
see me so often ? When you acknowledge the neceflity of complying with my advice.
YOU tell me, if I bid you, you'll go. I have bid you, begged you to go.--I do bid you go. Go, I conjure you, go! But let us not have any more partings. The laft was tco, too much. I did not recover myself all day. And your goodness to my little white-headed boy-He made me burst into tears this morning, by talking of the good-natured gentleman, and producing your present.
Either stay, and let our affection discover and ruin us—or go.
On the bended knees of love I entreat you, H., my dearest H. to go.
L E T T E R
Ireland, 26 March, 1776. IR ELANDEngland-Good Heavens, that M. should be in one part of the world, and her H. in another ! Will not our deltinies suffer us to breathe the same air ? Mine will not, I most firmly believe, let me rest, till they have hunted me to death.
Will you not give me your approbation for obeying you thus ? Approbation! And is that the coin to pass between us?
Yet, I will obey you further. I will restrain my pen as much as possible. I will 3 scratch the word love out of my dictionary.
I will forget-I lie-I never can, nor ever will forget you, or any thing which belongs to you. But I will, as you wisely advise, and kindly desire me, as much as possible, write on other subjects. Every thing entertaining, that I can procure, I will. I'll I willify, and write Tours--or any thing